started work few days ago.. kinda hoped for the impossible.. and yes.. i'm right again.. nothing from u.. at all.. i guess it's not bout having good memory.. it's how much u care to rmb and send ur regards.. i don't have a good memory as well.. bt at least i care.. nothing good to kick start my first day.. bt i can say it had gone rather smoothly..

today is a crappy day.. how can u b late and still show me ur attitude.. thanks for "making" my day.. sigh.. i'm busy enough and not all are easy cases.. yet u could dilly dally and not help.. i don't know if u choose ur cases.. bt it happens tt u did only like 4-5 easy cases?! it's ok if i have to do it alone.. bt leave ur criticism aside can? u think i wan to do it slow? i'm no longer a student.. i have to b responsible for everything i do and pass.. i did like 6 projections and of cuz it takes time to check rite?! in de meanwhile u can help a bit rite? instead of rushing me.. ya i know.. welcome to the real world rite?? oh well.. guess i just need time to adapt.. sometimes u'll just meet crappy ppl.. in addition, de damn bus driver had to skip my stop when i'm exhausted and looking forward to go home.. besides, de nxt bus would be 20 mins away! there's a bus in front how could i flag it down rite?! he din even bother to stop behind tt bus.. changed lane n drove off.. wtf!!!
at times like tis... i really miss u a lot.. even if u don't say anything.. just a hug will do.. i yearn sooo much for ur hug.. it'll make all my troubles go away.. i miss de way u kiss my forehead.. i miss de way u smile.. simply.. i miss u.... tho i always try not to do anything for u.. i just can't help thinking.. planning.. de way to let u smile.. to earn a hug.. to let u noe tt i'm always around.. will de things i do ever touched u? or maybe everything is seriously one sided.. sigh..
i saw something.. i hope it's not wad i think it is.. de more i know the worse i felt.. i'd rather it was de reason u told me before.. pls.. pls.. pls... not so soon..... pls........